THIS FAR

I did not come this far to only come this far,
It hasn't been easy and I've conjured on suicide.

I have a jar of demons and saints under my berth,
They have been the armor to strengthen my spine.

I have traveled this far with them,
They are who I am and I am them.

In battles won I've scares to nurse like a nursing woman,
In battles lost I've determination; the sinew for my bones.

No its not that simple like a simple two sentenced poem,
I've stumbled, given up and started anew a thousand times just to get this far.

Its been a hard road this road I'm travelling on,
But I do not seek smoother travels, just strength for tomorrow.

 I've made it this far not on my own might,
I've been on shoulders to gain higher ground.

FADED

A fading chimera of myself on a faded planet,
Draped in a faded garb chasing fading dreams,
I'm holding on but constantly fading with each breath,
I know I'm still alive but I'm barely breathing,
I'm not broken, I'm not lost, I'm just fading,
Off into to the night chasing fading faces I can't reach,
There are hands that pull me off to either side,
And whats left of me is fading under my skin,
Perhaps I'm on the wrong planet or maybe under the wrong skin,
I hear drums in the distant fading like the beating of my heart,
I was young once, had dreams and high hopes,
My mama used to say nothing lasts everything eventually fades,
 I'd give everything to have her by my side,
Just for a moments worth to reconcile fading memories,
Oh dear mama I've done so many things wrong,
And this point in my life things I'd like to forget will not fade,
But I'd like to live before everything is faded.